so i havent been revising, but i will.
i have to start tonight because if i dont i know i never will because im lazy as hell.
wednesday is my work experience induction! im cautiously optimistic, but hopefully it will go well and ill have nothing to worry about in the summer then.
(:

i had my exam timetable;

may fifth - french oral.
may eighteenth - french reading and writing.
may twentieth - english literature and language.
june first - biology.
june second - history; english civil war, martin luther and francis i.
june third - chemistry.

END OF EXAMS.
but yeah, its pretty stressful.
im going to revise for these because i'd be a fool not to.
but yeah, ITS THE EASTER HOLIDAYS.
nineteen days off, and i am going to work hard! xD.

-may.

yesterday was fun in general, i went for a meal with friends and as usual i was the only girl. i find i get along with guys much better than with girls, there's less bitchiness and you can laugh at dorky things with them. so i had a steak, and a rocky horror for dessert. yes im a fatty, but i did have salad beforehand so maybe that makes up for it. xD

today i dont really have any plans, we were supposed to get the new car today but a lot of stuff has happened which means that we havent, well not just yet. we havent had a car for like nine weeks now, and it's beginning to drive me up the wall. i wanted to go to pets at home today but i guess i cant now since WE DONT HAVE A FREAKIN CAR. =|

there has been a lot of drama lately. yesterday in chemistry i was so pissed off because my 'friend' stuck two of her weird friends in my seat, so i had to gawp and squint at the board. in the end i got up and moved because i really couldnt be fucked for all of it. after that i went to the study room to finish off my chemistry past paper, and two freakin' losers were fucking about in the study room. i just thought 'WHY THE HELL ARE YOU HERE. YOU TAKE MEDIA AND GOD KNOWS WHAT ELSE' XD. i have no patience for stupid people.

and now im waiting for my boyfriend to arrive whom i love very much. he doesnt realise how great he is but he is honestly amazing. we've been going out for two years and two months now, god. <33

ive decided that i'm going to apply to be a prefect because it's something ive always wanted to do. i used to be a member of my school committee when i was in primary school which i found extremely enjoyable because we went on question time. xD.

today wasn't that bad actually. i had a free lesson because my english teacher wasn't in, so we just sat in the study room, nattering away. lunchtime was chaotic since someone had filled a condom with peach flavoured water and people were throwing it about, i just stood back. obviously, i didnt want to get hit by it, but we're supposed to be in year twelve. how can younger kids look up to us when people are messing around like that. XD. although nowadays the kids are rude little brats, they swear, and they give you cheek like theres no tomorrow.

i spent last lesson on the PC in the i.t suite, pretty much just looking at upcoming films, and i'm very excited by the prospect of the new alice in wonderland movie. although, i did find the cartoon rather scary, there's something about disappearing cats with huge grins and singing flowers which bother me. xD.

i have three frees tomorrow, so i'm going to bring in my trainers so i might be able to play football or something. hopefully because i'm starting to turn into a fat pie. XD.

xoxo.

basically a lot has happened since my last post. i had my AS results back, and i had two b`s! i was so surprised especially with my chemistry exam and even though i had b's, i was only 2-3 ums marks off the next grade, which isnt even two marks. XD.

i was contemplating dropping french, but now im not because i cannot use the 'crap grades' excuse since it`s not gonna work. my best friend has said she's gonna drop it, but im letting her make the decision alone because .. its not my life -shrugs-

my first 'summer' exam is on the fifth of may which is a french oral exam. im rather nervous but im dropping french after the exams so as long as i get a result im happy. [:

ugh. im thinking of going for prefect, so ima write my letter out over the weekend, and hopefully ill have a chance. it`ll be nice especially to go on my ucas application since i need everything i can get if i really want to get into medicine. :/

anyway, thats it for the day.
xοxο

Okay, only until May. But Chemistry went pretty badly. I honestly felt like a guinea pig with OCR experimenting some silly questions on me. Not one question on hydrogen bonding, or ionisation energy, which have been in pretty much every single paper for the last four years. I really need at least a B in this exam, but I'm not so sure now.

However, Biology went sort of fabulously. I couldn't tell the difference between Smooth Endoplasmic Reticulum or whatever, and ribosomes xD. But I've had good marks in mock tests, so a B/A would be fabulous!

COURSEWORK NEXT WEEK.
dreading it. two days each with two hour sessions xD.

So it's been a very very very very long time since I last posted.
How times change, the past looked quite bleak for me and now things are going BRILLIANTLY.

Nearly every single post had me moaning about 'love' and 'hurt' and 'food' haha. As you might be able to tell I've grown up a little since then .. thankfully.

So, heres a quick catch up.

I'm not single, and I actually have feelings for him. Cause even when I used to be seeing him in .. November I didn't like him one bit haha. I'm seeing the same guy as well .. the one who got me 'depressed' in my last post.

I'm rather happy as I am, I don't give a shit what anyone thinks about me because .. really there isn't a point at all.

I'm gonna post in here more frequently from now on (:

xox

So I've been thinking to myself that right now I'm in the best ... known position .. aka i know where I stand with the opposite sex. I've actually forgotten about 'him' now. I don't know why I waited so long, but I feels there no longer an attraction .. of any sort.

So what's happened this week I hear you ask?

Absolutely nothing.
Nout.
Zilch.

Any of those do it.

But I'm gonna be going to see Borat on Friday.

EEEE! Should be amaze.

So yeah. Half term isn't going as bad as I thought.

xoxo

"A mighty pain to love it is,

And 'tis a pain that pain to miss;

But of all pains, the greatest pain

It is to love, but love in vain."

First day back.

So I had my first day back at school today, I can honestly say I enjoyed it. The mixture of less lessons and more time to learn in class, made me feel more happy at school, though I would prefer a better Maths set. I missed out on the second set by the a couple of places, so that was gutting. So now I'm in set 3 ... highest their expect us to reach is a B at GCSE level and my class is full of MORONS!.

The kids in my year are put into a few groups.

♥ Very popular kids - Don't usually have much personality, the boys are popular because they are loud .. and mouthy. The girls are popular because they are 'hot' but define hot, is it little 14 year old girls plastered in make up .. and also have let the majority of the boys in the popular group feel them up. They are not very friendly to people 'beneath' them but are pretty nice to eachother. There is a lot of bitchiness and jealousy going on between the girls, usually to do with other girls nicking their 'man' or someone slagging them off behind their backs. The boys compete for the girls, rows are very rare between boys. If there is a row, the group will split, one half will be on one boys side, and vice versa. What usually happens is within a few days they will make friends, and everything will be back to normal.

♥ Popular kids - Are very much well known around school but are different to the top group. They are not exactly 'in' the tight knit group, but are outside (around) it. They will date people in the VPK group, and may have a best friend in the VPK group but are not as popular. The boys don't have much personality either, don't talk much but usually excell at sports. The girls usually are clever, friendlier than the VP girls due to the fact they are more warm and welcoming. But being clever comes at a price, most VP girls aren't very clever because they don't pay attention in class. They are setted high because they fairly well in exams but usually don't care about anything. That is why the clever P girls are not in the VP group, they are too clever to fit in but VP girls like them, usually good friends with them.

♥ Not very popular kids - These unlucky people may have been popular in Primary school but due to not exceptional results in their Year 7 tests. They were setted in middle set, where unless you are blonde and have big boobs, or are amazing at sports and are 'good looking' you will not be 'in' with the 'scene' crowd. It's just the way things are, school is an unsocial place if your in the wrong crowd. You can have your great friends, and thats just awesome but some people search for the popularity, and just don't reach it. Unless they do something stupid .. with a VP boy, it could even make them 'hot', and not frigid, or make them a whore, and a girl who gives it up easily. You either get taken into the popular place, or you are shunned away and people will be hating on you. The boys are usually slightly weird, arrogant, and cocky. They think they are clever and funny, and most of all hot. The girls are usually either whores, who are popularish, or are weird girls who sit in the canteen all the time. They aren't very pretty to be honest and are quite unfriendly.

♥ The unknowns - This unfortunate bunch are usually turned away by anyone romotely popular, or believe they are popular. People don't usually know of them but if someone describes the person in detail, they will give a name .. sometimes wrong, sometimes right. The boys are usually .. braindead, do some sort of drug, have never been with a popular girl but have been with people like themselves. The girls are usually dull, smoke, overweight, and wear a lot of make up.

Luckily I fit into the PK group.

Anyway thats the insight into my school, I hope you feel more educated =]

xx